On This Rode

[Trill Stalker]

Vegas
Far Too Long

Only one eye saw clearly the new land of where my black and white strides had taken me. The sight that it saw was dark but pleasing at the same time. I had wondered into a Terran of high cliffs and roaring waves, and by the scent of it the land was already occupied by a few other equines. The last thing that I wanted to do was be in the presence of someone ells. Exspeacialy after the lose of my last home. Yarraman had been the last one to brake into my barrier and capture my heart. But he had died like everyone ells that had been important to me. I was like a plague, killing everyone I touched, everyone I cared for. My mother and brother had also died because of me, they were the reason I had a clouded left eye, it was an ever reminder of what I could not have. Love.

My head hung low as I turned my body and headed for an uprise in the earth. My goal was to end something that should have been ended long ago. Minutes later I stood, up at the peak of a cliff. Green grass covered the land behind me, looking so peaceful and forgiving while a storm of clashing liquid beckoned me forward into its frigid grasps. When I died I hoped that I would be able to be with the lost foal that I had killed before it had even been able to be placed on this earth. I stopped myself though, only a few inches from the edge. If I killed myself would that be a sin? Would god not accept me into his high rise glory?

The wind blew more fiercely now, actually attempting to push me over the ledge. My hair blew fervently in my face and it dulled the sound in my ears till the only thing I could here was my own heart beat. Why, Why, Why? Why had I been placed on this earth? Was there a meaning for me, as the years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes even second went by I doubted my existence even more. I was a mistake, exactly like a pandora's box. Created but mistakenly. So Manny life's had been stubbed out just like a candle glowing in the dark just to be engulfed by the greedy shadows. I'd been the cause of those death, so much blood speckled over my soul. I was drowning in it. Drowning in grief and I didn't know how to make it stop. MAKE IT STOP!

Tears were now running freely from my eyes, rolling down both of my cheeks to fall into the salted water below me. Every nerve in my body wanted to jump, wanted to meet the end of it's torture. Something held me back though and I couldn't move forward, couldn't make those last few inches. I wanted to scream in frustration, wanted to do something to prove to that something that I there was a meaning for me in this life. But there wasn't, there was only more innocent life to be stolen if I kept my own. This time when a scream clawed at my throat to get out I let it go, let my frustration penetrate the rushing wind around me, let it echo threw the unknown land that I stood upon. "Where do I belong?" Nowhere, Nowhere, Nowhere, it taunted.

_{Word Count; 569 Ha ha sorry if it sounds a little crazy}

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{ FENRIR ;
- There's just too much that time cannot erase.

I refused to feel sorry for myself. Lilith was gone, and left me with our single colt; the mourning process had been brief, as simple as going to the graves where my partner in crime had died. I remembered standing there, letting the turrents of gail force wind thrash my form, silvery tassles gliding out as if the gravity around me had failed. And, that was it. I returned to my home that father had given me before he went back home - softened by his words of praise, I'd forgotten that hellish, cruel nature that I was seemingly doomed upon. I stood up tall, neck set up high, and it was as though my whole being was softened, chiseled into a responsible, well meaning king. For the sake of my deceased family, I knew that I would rule this land well, and keep it with all the determination that rested away in my untouched heart. All of the speeches wouldn't mean anything though, without the admiration of being the odd one out. I was surrounded by those who watched me grow up - odd.

Sapphire orbs quietly looked out at my home, elongated limbs striding forward at a relaxed crawl. It wasn't long before the ground below myself held far off tremors of another approach. They were static, not able to keep the same rythmn for more than a few strides; hinting that there was distress, or someone was seriously fucked up. Sapphire opticals gazed out into the clouded scenery, following after the form with a silent pace; the grooves and sudden turns of this forested land seemed to be a pattern to me. I just knew the inches of it. Shaking off the mildly strange thoughts, dished crown lifted, twisting to one side, strong eyesight trying to form a definite figure amongst the bleak lack of sunlight. Among the deafening sounds of the backgrounds, rose up a fierce, almost tribal dwelling scream - and with it, in order, the vertebrae in my body stiffened, and my pace grew tight and rigid. Still, I continued toward the distressed creature, basking in it's own misery.

I heard her sobs before I caught sight of her ashen and ghostly splashed figure. My pace was halted, and I stood still, watching the mare with an almost content gleam in the back of my sapphire orbitals. Expression was almost baffled; though it remained straight and lacked the luster of a truly dark equid. I stayed still for what felt like hours, in the cliche event of it being a mere minute or two. Then, it was like the side of my brain clicked in; the side that held Riku's compassion. I struck out, moving closer to the suicidal appeairng one, and was silent until I was almost next to her pinto form, staring out past her weak appearance. Eyes gazed out into the misty looking glass - as if staring at it would improve the situation. Lungs exhaled as a soft breath, and my masculine voice, still lingering with a youthful edge, almost care-free - so much like Riku's, I had to add silently - carried out into the air. "Something on your mind?"