{ Distraction

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{ e m i r a x f r e y a

Slender pillars were my support as I traveled across the land with a determined look on my face, why couldn’t everyone just get along? Why did we always have to fight? I let a angry hiss slip from my lips, but calmed down as a young muzzle touched my belly – seeking to know what caused her mother such distress. I stopped my irritated pace and instead lowered my crown to the little creature – nuzzling and licking her lovingly. We were heading towards Zukura Brook and I felt like rushing there, wanting to show my precious filly that not everything had to be dark and scary – but that things can be wonderful and light too. I moved my head away from the happy youngster before looking ahead and instead of an irritated quick walk – I shifted into a calm pace so that the little one could explore while we moved.

Soon we arrived at the Brook and like a deer would do, I scanned the territory for dangers before bucking and setting off in a quick trot towards the small steam, as I turned to look over my shoulder, a little creature darted past me in full canter and I immediately sped up and followed the skewbald filly. Her young girlish laugh was brought back to me by the winds, and I felt a laugh of my own seep out from my fiery maw. The young filly suddenly stopped – her frame completely stiff – and I felt my heart stop for a second or two, what was wrong? In less than a second I was by her side, checking her over for bites, wounds – anything! But then a little voice interrupted my frantic search. “Mommy, what’s that? Is it the ocean?” the young filly questioned me with her childish voice, I snapped my head to the side – and spotted the small steam. I felt relief wash through my body as I stared at the cold water, did it really look so fantastic to her? For the first time I had to admit I was really growing up, and that I wasn’t a youngster myself anymore. To my daughter I let out a laugh before answering her question. “No honey, that’s a little river – why don’t you go and look into it? You might see something funny” I urged the little mare with a pleased voice. I couldn’t wait to she spotted her own her reflection, and before I could think she had ran to the steam and was now staring down in the moving water. [/color]

[azul.]

snyper

Wandering aimlessly, continuing along this path.
My parts the sky, painting a pattern of white.

I felt like I was actually growing up. I'd left behind the past - some ghoulish memories along with it, and settled into having a normal life. I'd felt, too, like I was succeeding, but you know, I realized that, those thoughts, that hope of being normal had been given up on the day I was born. It wasn't a surprise that I would be better off without a life, beside my mother, but I'd have to do something blatantly stupid to get myself killed, but maybe I could fight? Fight someone who really wanted to see myself dead? If only that were easy to do; if only I hadn't had so many ties to this world, more specifically, this land. A deep sigh carried out from my hardened jugular, and I thought some more. I lost track of the days that I'd spent running away, until I found the fact that I was an idiot, and needed to stay.. But why? What for?

Slender ebony limbs trudged forward into a land I had entered a few times prior to my fourth year of living. It felt strange. I'd only returned home once since my mother's death, and I came home to find a chaotic reunion. This slave sister that I had was dead; I made that gruesome analysis when I stumbled upon her; more memories of my past flooding back to me when I saw her lifeless form. I'd turned and ran before going any further. I threw a lonesome glance in Hollow Wood's realm, not even daring to enter that place, riddled with the year's struggles of evil equine- something I didn't understand, not one bit. The evil saga, wars, death, it was something I never wanted to witness, but I had, a few times more that what was comfortable. My tinted coat shivered absently, and then I looked around, sapphire orbs filled with a longing for the new world. If I could have a fresh start, maybe things wouldn't be so bad. But again, I was being too hopeful.

I started with a violent jerk of my ebon muzzle when I realized I had splashed into a small stream, the depth surprising me. I felt like I was saumer-salting through the air, stumbling for a steady piece of land where I could replay where I was. When I landed, legs splayed, stretched out, revealing a past scar across my hind quarters, I shifted, my facade angry. I wandered forward a few steps, feeling my mucles spasm, hurting badly, but it was all forgotten when I saw her. It was Emira, of course. How could I forget her? I released an exubrient whinny, my throat rumbling with joy, and I started towards her. She wasn't looking at me, but I failed to notice the subject of her attention, not yet. Oh, how I would wanted to know how she was though. "Emira!? Emira!" I called out, slowing to a less than graceful walk, closing in the distance between us, and I started to blunder on about my past to her, the only one I felt comfortable talking to. "Hi, Emira. I-I've missed you. I'm sorry I've been gone for so long. I met my mother's sister. And, I've learned so much about her, you know, what she was like before I was born?" I frowned slightly, noticing that I still didn't have her attention.

"It's strange to hear about my mom before she had me. She always seemed to worried, but she wasn't. Atleast, not before she died, she seemed happy, with me. I just wish I had her back. But, I digress. What have you been up.. to?" My voice faltered when I was close enough to see past Emira's slender body. A smaller filly was just ahead of her, posessing Emira's coloring. My mind couldn't process what I was wanting to believe, that it was an orphan, but I was only fooling myself. My breath rushed out, and I swallowed a choking outcry, desperately wanting to scream and run, to sob as I fled. I finally realized, my mind playing tricks on me. "You, you lied to me!" I erupted, staring at the bay (right? bay?) beauty in disbelief. "You said you'd never betray me! You did Emira! You lied!" My pained haunches, the muscles below my taut skin trying to hurry backwards, but my fall only moments earlier must have traumatized them, and I only skittered around, turning my crown to stare at the foal, which was no doubt Shadrik's. I released the breath that I'd been holding, really wishing that had never come here, that I'd been struck my lightning, only to escape a fate like this. If only I were lucky.

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{ e m i r a x f r e y a

I kept my gaze locked on the young filly as she explored the water, she seemed extremely interested in the moving liquid and I felt pride swell inside me of by the thought of I was the one who made her. She looked up at me shortly – her bright emerald orbs shining with happiness – and I sent her a brilliant smile, letting her know that it was alright and we would stay here a little. Soon however the our peace was interrupted as a familiar smell wafted in my nostrils, I felt my heart skip a beat or two – but didn’t turn to look at him, what if Freya fell and hurt herself? Yet as the buckskin stallion spoke with happy lyrics, I turned my head to send him a warm smile. “I missed you too Snyper! Where did you meet your mom’s sister?” I questioned in a curious tone, had he really found some other family? That was fantastic! I took in his buckskin frame and the sapphire orbs that shone brightly in the hot sun, he looked as handsome as ever, and I felt my heart race as I realized just how close he was to me. Yet soon the mood shifted completely, and I stared with horror at the young stallion as he stared in disbelief at Freya – suddenly he was facing me, throwing accusations at me, and I backed up slightly with a hurt look on my face. “Snyper please –“ I exclaimed with a shaky voice “Don’t be upset, please don’t be angry with me” I continued in a hushed whisper, oh why did this had to happen to me? My heart was beating wildly and different emotions were spinning around in my head, how was I supposed to react? My body shivered slightly as I stared with begging eyes at the buckskin stallion – didn’t he understand that I had no choice? Didn’t he know that I needed safety and somewhere to call home? I heard a loud splash and immediately jerked my head in that direction; Freya had only noticed the stallion now, and was rushing to my side – seeking comfort and protection under my belly. I clenched my jaw as I realized I had to be calm and collected for the sake of my daughter. “Freya honey, this is Snyper – a good friend of mommy, can you say hello?” I let out in a soft voice before stepping back, effectively putting the skewbald filly in front of me. The green-eyed youngster seemed horrified at the situation, but it seemed that she had my courage – or perhaps Shadrik’s cockyness? And soon she gathered enough courage to stare at the buckskin stallion with huge eyes. “Uh. Hi Snyper! Can we be friends?” She blurted – and even though we were in an quite awkward situation I almost laughed. I shifted my dark orbs to the buckskin stallion to stare at him again with begging eyes, couldn’t we discuss this later? I only hoped that Shadrik didn’t notice our absence and came to look for us – or that Freya decided to spill everything to her father when we returned home. To pass time I reached out and cleaned the young filly’s backside – awaiting the big drama.

[azul.]

snyper

Nature changes, with the seasons but I stay the same.
The tears that fall evaporate before hitting the ground.

Suddenly, the words that Emira had to say didn't matter to me. I barely heard her questioning voice carry to my trembling radars, and I didn't care to answer her either. Disturbia left my mind, all thoughts left me, except that day that Shadrik had intruded on me meeting Emira again. My eyes were locked on the filly, unreadable. I had an undeniable urge to want to reach forward and harm the pinto child, to kill it and then hide in the depths of my heart, with my mother, but even I couldn't manage that, killing someone, no matter what they did to me. I just couldn't do it. Nares widened, scenting the foul child. She was Shadrik's. I wanted to hate her so much, both of them, but I started in surprise when Emira spoke. Her trembling voice carried to me, and I looked at her, briefly insulted. "I'm not angry with you! I don't think I could be. But you lied to me, you selfish- you.. You lied to me, like everyone else in this world." I exclaimed, did she really expect me to be a dark? That I'd changed over the past year? It would only be fitting that I would've. I glared at her, my eyes disgusted and hurt, and I again stretched to take a few limping steps back.

I felt my jaw shake in an attempt to stop the sobs that started to rise from my throat - it made my voice crack as I spoke, only able to whisper. "You said that you wanted to care about me, that you wouldn't leave me. You lied, about everything. And I believed you. You actually made me want to live, to carry on with my mother's.." I faded off, seeing the filly bolt into Emira's sides, noting that they nearly resembled each other. Then Emira spoke, and I waited until she was finished to snap out in, unsure if I was annoyed, trying to doubt our friendship, or just trying to deny that it was ever started. "Freya, honey, this is Snyper - a good friend of mommy, can you say hello?" "No I'm not, I can't be and I won't be, because of you." I glared at Emira, my eyes shaded with a cool sadness, and I started to turn, cranking my neck away to hide the sudden wince that followed. "Uh. Hi Snyper!" The young, foreign voice sounded so strange to me, and I looked around, staring at the green eyed youngster without blinking. "Can we be friends?" Call it a fatherly instinct, whatever, but my voice softened, and I remained placid as I replied.

"No. Sorry. Some horses can't be your friends. Some are better off alone. You'll understand later." I replied, then threw a nasty looked at Emira. "My mom was hurt too. She didn't have a perfect childhood. Not like you. Or her. I guess it runs in the family." I answered quietly, twisting away and closing my eyes tightly, exasperated. I felt my eyes fill up with tears, and exhaled an outraged breath, then started to stomp forward, my hind quarter sliding under me, trembling with fatigue.

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{ e m i r a x f r e y a

I staid still and listened to everything Snyper threw at me, felt every word like a knife to my already bleeding heart, how could he be so cruel? And in front of poor Freya? I felt anger rise inside of me as the motherly instinct kicked in. “Who are you calling selfish? Who never came to see me? You! You never gave a damn about me – I was all alone, you just disappeared! Shadrik is the only one who has been caring for me.” I hissed out in a defensive tone, did he really think he could just come waltzing and throwing insults at me? Well then he had a thing or two coming! As he backed up I carefully took a step around Freya – effectively shielding her from the drama – and stepped closer to the buckskin stallion cutting his escape. “You don’t think I care about you? How can you be so blind? I’ve endured a million accusations, defended you – defended us. And still you say I don’t care?” I continued with a snarl. The last year I had been questioned and questioned by my mother of our relationship – hell the whole herd had looked strangely at me, and sometimes I even wondered if they had thought it was Snyper’s foal I carried.

Once again I clenched my jaw tightly as my ebony eyes clashed with his bright sapphire ones. As he slung out his final words I jumped forward – standing a mere meter from him. “Oh here the ‘spoiled princess’ thing goes again right? Is that the only things you can come up with? It’s getting old Snyper” I answered in a mocking tone, yes I cared about him – perhaps even more, but I was so angry, so frustrated that I couldn’t see past the hurt and anger which he inflicted on me. Freya whimpered at my side yet I didn’t turn my head to comfort her, I didn’t dare to move my eyes from the buckskin stallion in fear of what he would do next – could he hurt me or Freya? I didn´t think so, but I couldn’t afford to take that risk. “If you’ve only come to insult and hurt me Snyper, then leave” The words left my maw as an emotionless mask slipped on my bay face – I didn’t want him to leave I wanted him to stay and converse with me, tell me what he had been doing, enjoy his company and – I cut myself off, if the buckskin stallion couldn’t or wouldn’t accept my current situation then I had nothing to stay to him. Quickly I spun around 180 degrees and motioned for Freya to follow me to the steam again, carefully keeping her by my side this time. From a rock sprang a big toad – and Freya was off. I watched my skewbald princess as she played with the muddy frog, and wished that it was me – that I was still young and careless, that no worries in the world could or would touch me, that I was still protected by my powerful mother.

I cast a glance at Snyper, why did it have to be so complicated? Where did it go wrong? Was it that we lived in rivaling herds? That his mother had died? That I was a coward? There was so many different reasons, and they all seemed to be equal important, were we just not meant to be? Was it a sign that we should just turn and walk away from each other – and never talk again? I felt panic wash in on me at the thought of never seeing the buckskin stallion again, but what could I do? I raised my crown towards the sky before letting out a sigh. “Where did it all go wrong Snyper? What happened?” I turned my head to look at him with sad eyes. I waited as the light breeze passed us by, I waited as the sun burnt hot from the sky and I waited as the young stallion thought of his options.
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[azul.]

snyper

Here's to say, I'll love you always.

I watched Emira closely from the corner of my sapphire eyes, and when she exploded, the darkened edges of her words curling around me, stabbing me, I was ready for it. My reaction was slower than what I would have wanted, but I swung my haunches around and outright yelled- my vocals strained as I screamed, growing louder with each note. "I did too! I can't go to your home, Emira! That hell would swallow me up if I went there! I'm scared of it! I'm sure you are too. Hell, I bet you haven't even taken your daughter there." I snapped viciously, taking a deep breath and continuing. "I doubt you could call it affection, what he does to you. I used to love you more than he ever could. He just keeps you as a pet, surrounded by Intrepid, and Chaos, and the rest of your herd!" Althought still fuming, I quieted down enough to listen to Emira's catty words, but piped in when I saw her protect her daughter. "What? Do you think I'd hurt her? Or you? Is that what you expect from a monster?" I mumbled quietly, swallowing. "But, why would you need to defend me? You've said it yourself. You cared about me, you said it so many times. Why can't I believe it? You've always gone back home to Shadrik, haven't you? D'you know what I have? What I can go back to? Guess. I'll give you three chances to get it right." My voice carried out in a mocking tone, and I watched Emira with loathing orbs, swimming in a pool of sludge. I was in deep shit now. Maybe Emira would send Shadrik off to kill me! Yes, that's it!

I didn't recoil when Emira jumped towards me. If I had been able to move, I would have charged her, but my heart wouldn't let me harm her, even though I wanted to. Still, I raised my crown up on a scarred, arched neck, and I stared at her, her words carrying to my radars. I gave a dry sigh, and replied casually. "Yeah, it is. But hey, death's getting old too. Doesn't mean it won't happen. You'll die, she'll die, I'll die, half my herd's already dead, so I figure it doesn't matter much." My eyes searched past the bay mother, and rested on the bay youngster. I stared at her when she whimpered, for what reason unknown to me. I made a dismissing motion to the child, and then started to back up again. "I didn't. I came to tell you that I care about you, that I love you, more than anything in this world, perhaps love you like my mother. Then I found that you spent this past year bathing in the comforts of a home, of a lover. That's something I could only dream about having." I then let a few tears stray, creating a line that trailer down my facade, and when she turned away, I finished my turn and limped forward a few purposeful steps.

I felt her gaze trail across my back, but I ignored her and kept moving forward, almost glad that I would be able to leave, but then I heard Emira's pondering words, and I huffed out a warm breath. "It's when you forgot about me. When you just forgot that I had been through so much, and you tossed me away to be with your true love. So, if you're happy with him, then.." I stopped talking, inched forward, closing my eyes. I swallowed back a sob, and twisted my neck around to where Emira stood. I opened my sapphire orbs, shiny with tears, and squinted one eye, giving a soft, hesitant grin. "Then, I guess I've been in your way all these years. So, I'll let you live your life. Just don't screw up." Black limbs pushed me forward again, and I looked at Em's small child for a few moments, before looking away. "I guess I should've stayed with her, then." I muttered to myself as I made a hasty retreat, radars listening for her approach. If I really stayed with my mom, maybe I wouldn't have hurt Emira the way I did.

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{ e m i r a x f r e y a

I stared at him with eyes that narrowed for every single word that fell from his tainted mouth – seriously, how could he be such a bastard? Where was the sweet yet mysterious buckskin stallion that I had, that I had – fallen in love.. with? I stiffened at my own thoughts and stared off into the distance, ignoring the rest of the words that fell from his maw. Did I really love him? Was it possible to love two stallions at the same time – but in a different way? Shadrik was safe, loving and our union was blessed by our parents – while Snyper was shaky, mysterious and hard to break but still warm and beautiful on the inside.

I opened my maw and closed it a few times trying to gather enough courage to say what I wanted – I probably looked like a fish desperately gasping for air. “Yes Snyper, I do love you – but you’ve never given me any reason to believe that it’s more than just a fling, can you settle down? Can you come to terms with your past and live fully in the present?” I questioned him with a shaky voice, then took a short break before continuing “and more importantly, can you love me?”I finished with a soft whisper. I stared at him for a few minutes, letting him finish up with everything he wanted to say – and my heart almost broke as he turned around to leave. Yet his last few words made my blood boil and my eyes see red. “You say I’ve betrayed you? Stayed with her? You son of a bitch!” I screamed with fury, had he come all this way to insult me – and then he had a love of his own somewhere? Bastard! I hammered my foreleg into the ground with a loud thump, before turning around to head to the other end of Zukura Brook. “Come Freya darling” I called out in a soft warm voice to my little daughter – who jerked her head away from the green toad to look at me, it almost looked like she was accusing me of stealing her away from the fun. “I said come, now” I added with a more demanding tone. She winkled her nose and I heard her say something like ‘bye bye mr. foggy’ before returning to my side. Immediately I shifted into a trot towards the other end of Zukura Brook to avoid that back-stabbing no-good asshole Snyper. But my rage wouldn’t let me leave without having the upper hand and soon I stopped to look over my shoulder. “Tell your father we’ll come and collect my niece soon enough, can’t have her living with a bastard like you now can we?” I yelled with a fake happy tone – sure it stung somewhere to call him that, but hadn’t he just spent the last hour yelling at me for being with Shadrik, and then he had a lover himself? Bastard! Hell would freeze over before I let my niece grow up with him, he would probably poison her mind with lies.


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[azul.]

snyper

Always a short step, away from happiness.
Holding into this, all of this pain alone.

Muscles rippled under my velvet coat, now shining with a layer of humid sweat. I twitched at the sounds that I made as I tried to hurry off, stepping around branches that lay, strewn in my path. I stared at them intently, then frowned slightly, my radars drooping to each side when Emira continued to speak. True, I didn't want to go, but each step I took contradicted the last one. I moved with smaller steps, slower, and I remained lingering while Emira spoke. I enjoyed her voice; the gentle tone, although sounding angry at this moment, she usually sounded so serene, so calm. I finally stopped the shuffling movements and turned my dished crown to look at the bay, slender mare with dull eyes. "Yes, Snyper - I do love you." My jaw tightened, black tipped mug jerked upwards ever so slightly, and I listened, now that she had my full attention. As she continued, I grew almost ashamed, and nodded. That much was true. "You know what? I really don't know if I can let go, of my mom. I really don't know. And I don't know if you'd even want to stick around for me to do that." My voice carried out with a casual edge, bordering on the line of hysteria. I never even thought about letting the thoughts of my mom go. Wasn't that a part of me? Forgetting about someone really seemed a bit rash.

"Well, I can really try, can't I?" I questioned Emira quietly, but my surprised attitude quickly turned to an annoyed gesture when she started screaming again. I thought back to my previous words, where I obviously went wrong, and replied, dipping my head down slightly. "Her.. My mom. I should've stayed with her, you know? Maybe I could've done something to make her comfortable." My short explanation was a few seconds too late though, and I watched Emira turn to stalk off, Freya right beside her. I grimaced and watched them recede, able to let it go, and I resumed my walk, until Emira called out again, and I looked around to see her eyes glaring at mine - but her tone was sugar sweet and only slightly sarcastic. I swallowed, and spoke back. "Yeah, okay. We can't have anymore monsters like me." I imagined myself with a mask again, the only real way for me to hide from the surrounding worlds, and shivered.

Then, I continued in a hesitant tone, "But, I wasn't going to go home. I, don't really know where to go, actually." I had already had my plan in mind, before I saw Freya. I probably would have asked Em to come with me. I realized that would never happen. But I had prepared to leave Midnight Acres, away from my mother, or maybe, perhaps stay. That was all ruined now. Dumbfounded, I remained still, watching Emira and Freya move off. "Uhm.. Uh." I mumbled, not sure of what to say as I watched Emira leave in a tantrum of rage. There wasn't much that I could do. A lot I could have done, but I wouldn't do anything else.

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want me to reply or wait and have them meet later?

[azul.]

I was planning on a reply, but I suppose they could meet later. = /

[nuzzer2]

{ E M I R A ; x x F R E Y A }

- the princess and the swan

I stopped as quiet words reached my ears and I had to strain my hearing to catch it all. I snapped my head around to stare at the buckskin stallion with a fierce look, was it so hard to let go? We all did at some point and he hadn’t even known her! I shook my soft mane before letting out an defeated sigh – spinning around 180 degrees, slowly returning to the brute. “If you can’t let her go, there will be no future for you – don’t you see?” I spoke with a soft tone – he was asking me for everything, why couldn’t he offer a little himself too? I turned my head to look at Freya and immidiatly guilt washed through me, what was I supposed to do? Continue this friendship-fling-whatever thing – would it ever be more than that? Would he ever be able to actually love me like Shadrik did? I felt my heart being tugged in two directions and I couldn’t figure out what way to go. I stared at Snyper with thoughtful eyes as I let out my next question, “Do you hate your father? Or your step-mother? Why didn’t any of you come for Einjeru?” I shifted my gaze to the sky, not wanting the poor male to see the anger in my eyes: I had seen the young mare be tortured, seen the wounds on her slender body and felt her tears like they had been my own.

Somewhere I felt like marching to the Black Lake and yell at her parents for not being there – for not doing anything, it was their fault she had died! I clenched my jaw tightly as the memory of my broken brother came into mind, he had been so sad – lifeless, but wasn’t it his fault too? Couldn’t he have admitted his love and freed her from the bounds of slavery? I turned my head to look at young Freya, could I really let her grow up in a world full of malice and hate? Could I leave Hollow Woods to ensure her a better future? I cast my eyes back on Snyper, would he be safe? Was there any signs of darkness in him – like his father and mother? Would he abandon me and Freya too on the first chance? I lowered my crown a little as I considered my options before making up my mind. “Can you let go of your past and fully live in the present for me and young Freya? Can you let go of your anger and perhaps start a new life without the darkness?” I questioned him in a serious tone – this was serious business, if he got my meaning he would know how much I put at stake right now – leave behind my position, family, friends – and Shadrik for him and the thought of there could be something better out there for my young filly. I felt my frame shiver slightly at the thought, but I had to admit that my heart would wither and die if I watched Freya grow up and into a monster. I turned my head towards the direction of Hollow Woods and felt my heart call out for Shadrik, yes I had to admit I loved him, but didn’t I love Snyper too? Where was the difference? I shook my head in frustration and instead focused my gaze on the young Freya, lowering my muzzle to her skewbald frame and nuzzled her.

[steph]

aww... i almost cried when i read this... i feel emmies pain. if Shadrik only knew..

[azul.]

snyper

Change renowned,
Like the translucent sky above.

My heart skipped a few beats when I saw Emira's slender splashed body whip around, and she advanced towards me. I felt no remorse, no satisfaction that she was here, and not back at Hollow Woods. In fact, I didn't show much of anything. When Emira continued her approach, I looked away quite shamefully, my sapphire orbs running along the creases in the lush turf. I listened to the pinto beauty speak, and I flashed her a harsh glare, my snapped lyrics escaping my black tipped mug. "You don't think I know that?!" I huffed out a soft breath, sighing deeply, apologetically. "I know, I know. But, it's like.. I don't know.. I don't want to let her go, since I knew so little about her. I, I feel like I'm betraying her if I just let her go. I'm just clinging to her memories." I explained, a frown making me appear so childish, so immature. In a way, I guess I was. When I dared to steal a look at Emira, she was staring at me, and her lyrics made me tighten up. I hardly remembered Einjeru. I'd never met her in person, and only followed what Jaliya said. So why didn't I do anything. I opened my mouth twice before I was able to speak, riddled with a strange stutter. "To be honest, I'm not on great terms with my father.. I think he blames me for something. But, I was told that Intrepid loved Einjeru, and she loved him.. If I'd known that she was being abused, I, maybe, could've done something."

I looked away again, thinking. Radars flickered, catching Em's sweet, thoughtful lyrics. At her daughter's name, I looked past the sabino denizen, past her towards Freya. The child didn't appear to have any trace of Shadrik in her, but then again, not many did at her age. "Can you let go of your anger, and perhaps start a new life without the darkness?" My eyes shot back to Emira, and I stared at her blankly, feeling lost. Then, I dropped my head, releasing a long, slow breath. My throat tightened up, and as I lifted my head to watch Emira, I started to speak, my tone rightfully scared. "Yes.." I mumbled, shading my eyes from Emira's soft gaze. "Y-yes, I think so. I want to." I closed my mouth hesitantly, and watched Emira's loving nature towards Freya, but I couldn't manage a smile, my mind swarming back to my mother's corpse. How wonderful it would feel to forget that, but the rest.. What about that? Absently, I shook my dished crown and shuddered.

yuck. =/