x my immortal.

[azul.]

R I K U

I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears.

I was having one of those 'oh shit' days. Even the mind swirling heat didn't bother me that much. Aerials were pinned flat against my poll, but I wasn't sure who was driving me on. Today, both Sora and Kairi were speaking to me, but so was Xehanort, and he seemed louder than ever, urging me to let him take charge, and kill Chaos, like what I should have done years ago. "Come on Riku, it'll be nice and painless- Riku, don't, please! It won't be fair to kill him, just because he's a bad guy!" I was riddled with confusion, and it eventually resulted in me jogging into some low hanging branches. They hadn't been there before, but the rain I suppose, had made them crack, nearly breaking. And of course, I walked into the whole cluster, scratching my tender muzzle, scenting my own blood. Yes, this was another 'oh shit' day. Great.

I was sticky with a mid-afternoon sweat, my dappled pewter coat being streaked. Minus the intresting red blaze that I had acquired from my run-in, I appeared normal. Sapphire pools glinted with anger while I replayed the past few days. Did I really tell Einjeru to go talk to Chaos? What was I thinking? Chaos was no doubt the most vile creature I'd ever met. "Hm hm hm.. Riku, are you so sure about that statement?" A scowl spread across my facade, and although I hated to admit it, I nodded, not trusting myself to speak, for fear that I'd go off in another rampage. My attitude growing placid, I rambled to a halt, and my teal pools glanced around, nares inhaling all the scents in this soggy area. I could obviously scent Einjeru, and Intrepid. That thought made me raise my crown, and bellow out a gutteral scream, much to Sora and Kairi's displeasure.

I didn't care if Chaos heard me. I could easily take him on. He'd already taken too much from me. Snyper, Einjeru, my dignity. Although, I didn't really have dignity to begin with. I had already lost it when I became aware of the presence that lie within myself. So, I was doomed there. Silently, I began to walk again, this time, more purposeful. Within a few strides, I began to jog forward, Einjeru's scent growing stronger, wafting in my nares like a tease. How I wanted to be with her and apologize. Apologize for everything that happened, and when she lost her- her, heart... That wasn't Einjeru, that was Kairi. Immediately, my present movements, a brisk three beat pace slowing with surprise. What was it that I said when I took the control of the darkness? I could remember it all clearly. "Remember Riku? You looked back at Kairi, her lifeless form, like a puppet." I remembered that too well, and it made my heart hurt. Releasing a built up sigh that shook my chest, I mumbled out into the open, a breeze snatching my wordsand making them seem louder than what they were.

"Soon Kairi, soon."

I felt as though all of my built up pride had sunk, like a castle that was blown up. Even Xehanort was silent at this moment. I ignored the breeze , bringing in the fall scent. It was breeding season, but I was faintly aware of this fact. If Jaliya and and I had our second foal, if Falin wanted her first, if Africa... No, she was dead. The fall would bring back the aniversity of her death. My crown dropped, touching the soggy ground beneath me, and with a snap, I jerked it back up, then continued, blind with rage. I wouldn't even be in this situation if I hadn't wanted to leave the island! I was angry with myself, but what could I do? Leave Einjeru here to be forced around by Chaos? Even I knew that he'd probably force breed her when Ein was of age. The thought frightened me, but it seemed to drive that fury inside me.

I'm not sure why this time was different, but I didn't unleash Xehanort. Maybe it was the fear of hurting my daughter that kept me from changing, or maybe he knew that, too. Still, I charged forward, scenting Einjeru, stronger than ever. Simaltaneously, I inhaled a sharp breath, and screamed out. The scream sounded foreign, even to me, but now I could see Einjeru. She didn't appear to be hurt, but she was alone, and that was unheard of. I slowed, cautiously striding forward to meet my bay heiress.

"I did my part, now what's the catch? There's got to be a catch."

I kept muttering that as I moved closer to Ein, sapphire orbs glittering with fear. Would she accept me again? After all, I- or Xehanort, rather, pushed her away for the fear that she'd leave. I stood still in front of her, swallowing hard. I was too scared to speak, and released a small breath.

dooone.

[lynx'']

i n t r e p i d

On towards the wilderness

Days, weeks even, had passed, just me, and Einjeru, in our own little world, i'd often sneak her out at night time, when i knew father was out of the realm, so she could see what my home consisted of. All that anger, paranoia and confused had lifted now, its what i felt when i first laid eyes on here again, at our herd meeting. It was now replaced by the first emotion i felt for her. Love.

But still, although i loved her, and she loved me, i gave her space, she no doutedly wanted alone time, to think things over, even if she was a year and a half, to be kicked out of home was sure enough a big thing. I grunted at a few flies that rested on my pelt, and carried on my grazing, in the bottom meadow, where she was, however, i was hidden by the small cluster of trees in the middle of it.

Hearing a distant scream, my skull shot up, that fast, that unaware, that it cracked, hard against a low hanging branch, slitting my ear, a small stream of blood trickled down, but soon stopped. I listened, hard, confused, who was that calling? and why? I glanced over to Einjeru, but found no reaction returned. I lightly stepped a little further out of my little den, and watched carefully.

There it was again, the sudden cry of a stallion, wait, it sounded familiar. it couldn't be; Riku? Riku you bastard, how dare you. How dare you step foot in my homeland, especially now. Now you have broken my princesses heart. how could you! That little voice in my head screamed at me, but i controlled it, staying put, my muscles twitching with anger, my teeth sliding against eachother. I scented him walking our way, surely Ein knew now? surely she would run? from what she had told me, it sounded pretty horific. He came into sight, my harks pinned back to my skull, teeth bared, eyes narrowed, as he walked towards her, i launched forward.

No! how dare you set foot in hollow Woods Riku. I spat at him, slamming my body between him and Einjeru, protecting her from her father. You bastard Riku, how could you..How could you do this I hissed, I was that angry, my voice shook with the stench of the emotions i was feeling. Now, i could kill, i could kill him, he would never get away with this. Never.

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; e i n j e r u

The wind softly caressed my sore skin – even though new skin was growing over the torn, I was still extremely sore. I let out a sigh of displeasure; I hadn’t had a bath for weeks, so my still thick coat was decorated with dried blood, so surely I had to look like hell. The last weeks had been pure hell, one after one they had come to see me – torment me, hell even spit on me! As I heard someone approach, I growled lowly to myself, were they coming for another round? My ears flattened to my skull and I bared my teeth dangerously, I knew that resisting would only earn me more wounds – more skin to heal, they were still way stronger than me; a young yearling. But as I raised my proud gaze from the ground to meet that of the intruder, I gasped and sprung to my feet. For days, no weeks! I had imagined that they would come to save me – take me away from the nightmare, had he forgiven me for my rash behavior? My ears quickly popped up and forward.

“Daddy! You came for me!”

I cried out with relief. Quickly a shadow sprung in front of me – was he restraining or protecting me? I had not forgotten Intrepid, where everyone else had been monsters to me; he had protected and cared for me. My anger against my sire had lessened over the weeks, for the first days I had been wishing for his death – or well, at least some blood. But now those thoughts seemed so far away, my ghostly father had come for me! That had to mean something, did they miss me? I shifted my gaze to Intrepid, could I bear to go against him? The angel – my crush – who had saved me so many times, lead my mind away from the darkness? I grimaced as the rusty smell of blood spread through the meadow, when I had jumped up I had accidently reopened the delicate wound Lakita had dealt me on my neck and throat.

I stayed my ground, wishing for the pain to stop for a few seconds – perhaps even fade completely. My sapphire orbs sought out those of my father yet again, begging him to get me out of here – without hurting my innocent love. But could he do that? What would Intrepid say? My heart clenched tightly with fear of his health, would his father punish him for letting me go; or even worse, would Intrepid put up a fight? It looked like it. Could I stop him? I didn’t think so, and what if Chaos came for me again? Would my family be in danger? The autumn had arrived, and so had the breeding season, meaning that my dad’s mares had to be pregnant by now – and way more vulnerable than normally. The grimace returned, what could I do?

[azul.]

R I K U

And if you had to live,
I wish that you would just leave.

An immediate guilt washed over me when I saw how Einjeru started to pin her aerials, like I was the enemy. It was like she was blind with rage. My dished crown lowered, closer to the ground, tipped to one side; all of the body language that I was able to see, and even use was all mixed up. I could see that Einjeru was tight, ready to fight, and then she finally seemed to recognize me. I swallowed hard, not trusting myself to smile. Although, I felt like sobbing when Einjeru started to speak, wild-eyed. "Daddy! You came for me!" The desperation in my poor daughter's voice made me shiver, and step forward. My lips began to move slowly, trying to speak, and to find the words that I begged to speak.

"Yes, sweetie. I- I'm sor-"

My voice faded off as the figure of a familiar one stumbled in front of Einjeru, but not before I saw the gaping wound that had spread across Einjeru's bay neck. A bite. Someone bit my daughter. For some oblivious reason, I started to piece things together. Intrepid, randomly showing up- to whom I ignored his blatant curses- and Einjeru's wound. Although it'd be easier to sit for a moment and think about it, like how Chaos could've attacked her, I didn't believe that. My body stiffened, and my head began to hurt; maybe it was from the run in with a low hanging branch.. Either way, I raised my crown, narrowed my sapphire orbs at the leggy youngster, trying to keep my voice level and calm. It was hard though, hearing a far off chant in my thoughts.

"Riku, he hurt her. He hurt Einjeru.. What are you going to do? Hm? He hurt her, and is keeping her prisoner! No one would stand for that!" I paused

NOT DONE.