I'm gonna burn it down [Riku]

[nuzzer2]

{ J a l i y a

- don't you love me anymore?

I kept my bay crown lowered for a few minutes until I felt in complete control of myself. Slowly – oh so slowly, I raised my crown up to stare at the dappled stallion once again; only to find him staring at the horizon! Rage flooded through my veins as I stared the – what I thought – was a mature stallion down, didn’t he realize I could be dangerous when provoked? Hazel orbs glinted with a hidden warning as I took a few daring steps towards the ignoring stallion. However soon his beautiful sapphire orbs shifted to meet mine – and for a few seconds my features softened and my heart drummed against my cold chest, how could he possibly be that handsome? But how could he also be so damn stupid? My orbs narrowed once again as I let out a challenging snort for him. “Really? Because to me it seems like you’d rather want me gone” I commented his earlier behavior before continuing. “But sad news darling, I’ve come to stay” I finished while my feline eyes sized the other mares up – challenging them to say something. Soon my eyes settled back on the grey stallion – just in time to see his small gesture – and immediately the wolfish smile returned as I twisted around to follow my dappled mate into the darkness.

Strong muscular pillars silently carried me across the moist ground as I followed him through the trees – through the darkness, the only sound beside us was an owl howling somewhere nearby – and a few wolves sniffing around somewhere to our left, but other than that it was quiet. The ghostly stallion soon came to a halt and spun around to stare at me before spilling his precious lyrics. “I left when I found out you impregnated a mare without consulting with me, were we not mates Riku?” I kept my voice cold and distant – yet on the inside my feelings were raging and my brain confused. “I originally planned on going to another land to breed with some other stallion to get my revenge – but I found that I couldn’t, because compared to you I’m fucking loyal” The next words slipped out as a warning growl – again the pain arose inside of me and I desperately wanted it gone, why had he mated with some other stupid mare, when I was supposed to be his one and only? Hadn’t I granted him a perfectly healthy filly and a strong colt? What could he possibly need more? Hadn’t I always been there for him when he needed me – supported him when he was down? I didn’t understand. I didn’t notice I was clenching my jaw tightly before the pressure made small black dots dance across my vision and I gradually relaxed to reduce the pressure. Instead I focused on Riku once again to voice my hidden opinions. “Why am I not enough for you? What did I do wrong?” I was starting to revert back to my ‘old’ self – the calm, sweet side and truly I hated it, I didn’t want to seem like a begging peasant asking his master for a little corn; instead I wanted to look fierce and in control, but it all seemed to fade when I finally stood in front of him – staring into those dazzling blue eyes.

I couldn’t quite understand where it all had gone wrong, was it because we lost Einjeru that he stopped loving me? Was it because I didn’t care better for Phoenix? The questions kept stacking up in my mind – stunning me with the fierce intensity of them, forcing me to react by throwing my anger out at my only love. But instead of directing it at him again, I spun around and stomped a few steps to a nearby tree – before twisting my slender bodice around again. I stared at the dappled stallion for a few seconds, making sure that he saw the rage burning like hungry flames in my hazel orbs – before raising my back pillars and placing a hard kick upon the young tree. Pain from the clash between me and the tree burned its way up my legs and surged through my bodice like a wildfire; but I didn’t notice – I was completely focused on the ghostly stallion standing a few meters away. Could he hear my heart drumming? Could he sense my inner battle? Would it ever be okay again? Why hadn’t he come for me? I felt betrayed – like an old toy that had been thrown away and replaced with something new. [/size]

[azul.]

{ R I K U
- And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you'll feel me somehow.

The verbal thrashing that Jaliya had given was like being held at knife-point. Really? What was I supposed to do? Sapphire orbs again twisted away from my russet mate, sardonic smile spreading across my facade - this was beginning to frustrate me. Why couldn't we have stuck together? We'd made it through too many tirades together. Why couldn't we just stay with each other through this? Loud exhale rushed through my nares, focus returning to Jaliya as her hissed words spurted through to my flickering aerials. "Really? Because to me it seems like you'd rather want me gone" Radars snapped back underneath thick tresses, voice slipping through my shallow throat before I could stop them. "Did I ever say that?" Vocals were fierce, picking up on the anger that Jaliya had begun to unleash on me. Eyes narrowed to little glints of simmering sapphire, lowering to my bay mate's level, matching the amount of rage that bubbled within her. Patience lasted long enough until the russet mare was finished speaking again, remark again forcing it's way through my lungs, out into the cool air. "That's good; I never wanted you to go in the first place." Though my words were quite tart, they were still truthful. Level-headed stare was shot toward Jaliya, and I spent a few silent moments to gather up my thin nerves, inhaling enough air until my dappled chest began to drum, feeling like it were to burst at any second. There was a sort of relief, I imagined, as Jaliya stalked after me, entering the darkness that dared us to get lost in it's depths. That could possibly count for something, couldn't it?

Atmosphere around us was tight; very few creatures stirred, wanting to disrupt the threatening scene, with good reason. "I left when I found out you impregnated a mare without consulting with me," Eyesight averted to my soul mate, and I stared at her in disbelief; how the hell could I fight nature! This was what stallions were supposed to do! "were we not mates Riku?" Gaze dropped to the colorless floor, trying to carefully plan my words, losing the masculine tone that I'd had mere minutes before - back before Jaliya's appearance had been known. Soft sigh left my pale kissers as I began to reply. "What am I supposed to do Jaliya? I'm just trying to live a normal life, without having to worry about him!" Words were exclaimed almost frantically. She had to understand me, didn't she? Exaspirated breath left my lungs, and I let my sapphire orbs rest on Jaliya's mature facial features, feeling drained. "I know it's not an excuse." Words began suddenly, soft tone taken on. "I let Xehanort impregnate the mare. You know how he is." Words struggled to keep up a level tone, without dropping into that pathetic tone; I doubt that it would help to beg to Jaliya. "But I found that I couldn't, because compared to you, I'm fucking loyal." Maw parted to attempt an interruption, but no words came to me, and I instead let myself fall silent, allowing Jaliya to continue her beatings.

"Why am I not enough for you? What did I do wrong?" Emotions spiked up, startled - what? How could she possibly say that! Frustrated vibration rumbled my throat, creating a faint growl - and I threw Jaliya a surprise look. Words leaked from my dappled maw before I could plan them out, "Jaliya, you are! You have been the only one to ever get me through these past years. I don't know why I do these things; it frustrates me that I can't keep you happy. I'm sorry." Voice began to crack with a trembling effort, creamy hued tresses swinging in front of my dazzling optics as I spoke. Heaving breath escaped my slender form, and I stared at the arabian queen with softening eyes, losing the kingly outline that I'd tried to fake; instead, it was that confused stallion that had rescued Jaliya from the Falls many years back, back when they'd both wanted to return to their prior glory. Maw formed a wordless plea, dappled form starting forward slightly as Jaliya twisted around - immediately fearing that this would be the last time that I would ever see my bay soul mate. Instead, I stood dazed, watching her helplessly as she took out her violent rage on the new trees that morphed the Lake. Maw opened, soothing voice carrying to Jaliya. "I don't know what else to say Jaliya. I'm sorry. I probably always will be sorry, but I can tell you that I've never loved anyone; and never will love anyone else but you." Voice was simple, to the point, and I let my sapphire eyes run over her form slowly, before glancing up, my statue holding still.

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